Yes, In the 1970s I was just a weird kid. Super bright but eccentric. Didn’t get along with peers…or anyone really. Was often the target of bullies.
Also very very sad all the time. But that was major depression diagnosed in my twenties. I was around fifty when I got an ASD diagnosis from my therapist.
I am pretty sure I was the thesis for her PHD.
He wasn’t the first person to get in trouble with the establishment by suggesting charity and kindness.
He wasn’t the last either. And we keep exiling or executing them all.
Even if you’re not a believer in miracles, the bible tells us that this is not a new problem; The public and established authorities have been disregarding the impoverished, the foreigner, the widow and orphan since time immemorial, that civilization gets subverted time and time again to preserve old power structures that no longer serve the community (and suffer because they need a healthy community to survive)
Oh and Free Palestine, Death to Monarchists, No War But Class War
Though the compromise of privacy rights and protections against unreasonable search, seizure and surveillance usually follows the terrorist and child-predator to activist and protestor pipeline.
NSA and FBI have always taken an interests in left wing activists critical of the current regime.
This is why you block the camera with a little diorama that shows a single white male viewer…frantically masturbating.
I very much appreciate the offer. Part of it is that I’ve been wailing like Cassandra about the rise of autocracy since the CIA torture thing in the aughts (and hippies older than I have been noting the rising police state since the 1960s) so I’m kinda taking CECOT and the dismantling of federal institutions personally. But then a lot of personal life stuff happened about the same time, so here we are.
I’ve got a few friends left, a rugged protocol for when I am triggered,and I am rebuilding a support network. It’s not my first rodeo, but (to mix metaphors) I’m definitely playing hard mode now.
As Blue from OSP, an early example of self-insert fanfic.
I’m in the middle of a psychotic break (since November 2024, and yes, the collapse of the US is a factor) and off and on suicide watch.
Here’s an exchange I’ve actually had (more or less, paraphrased) more than twice these last three months:
🥼📋👓🩺: In the past week, have you been having thoughts about killing yourself? (Another version is “How recently have you thoght about ending your life: a) less than a year, b) less than a month, c) less than a day, d) today.”)
🐰🎩🫖☕: Oh sure. Every day. Hourly.
🥼📋👓🩺: What!?
🐰🎩🫖☕:Yeah. For me this is Tuesday. The brain is always considering heading to check-out. I have a numerical scale of one-to-ten for suicidality the way we do pain assessments.
🥼📋👓🩺: I…see?
🐰🎩🫖☕: It’s fine! Ambient unlife stuff is at a S-3, like “shit I need to get to bed so my boss can scream at me early tomorrow. If that bus careened through this crosswalk, that problem would be so resolved.”
🥼📋👓🩺: …This is normal for you?
🐰🎩🫖☕: Routine. At S-5, I may look around for wandering death opportunities. I don’t talk to anyone about it until about S-6 and start having fantasies of getting proactive, at which point I might tell my therapist if she isn’t squeamish. (A lot of therapists are hair-trigger and will start threatening involuntary committal with any noise of suicidal ideation)
🥼📋👓🩺: Maybe you should…
🐰🎩🫖☕: It’s gotta be an S-8 or S-9 before I’m going to inconvenience a hot-line operator or crisis counslor. By then I’m looking at chemistry sets on Amazon. A fun game is trying to cross a hundred busy intersections in two hours. I’ve won so far.
🥼📋👓🩺: You can’t just…
🐰🎩🫖☕: You can’t just charge death head on. A million years of evolution will drop you before you commit. You gotta sneak up on Death. Icarus, not Heracles.
🥼📋👓🩺: < 🎩 gibbering noises >
I get to enjoy that the reverse happened, when he made mocking jokes about Islamic jihad and the promise of 72 virgins, and I got to school him about the Houri and the more general (and often pacifistic) notions of jihad as a personal quest.
(I’m not Muslim, but researched them during the war on terror in order to separate functional culture from violent movements. It’s complex and valid criticisms intermingle with harmful stereotypes, like Christianity and vampirism)
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This is possibly true. He seemed more left leaning as the mayor of San Francisco, and I didn’t realize he was actually a chameleon.
Look at my traitor of a governor with the monarchist tyrant.
The idea that Florida can “protect” minors by making them less safe is dangerous and dumb.
I assume this is less about protecting children as protecting the movement from children, as well as facilitating wrongdoing against children by members of the movement.
As a general rule there are no backdoors that are good guys only. In fact predators, foreign agents and industrial spies will know them sooner than their distribution to law enforcement.
As if someone published a book featuring this very technology…in 1949.
It was noted with memes when the ToS of one such television suggested not having private conversations in front of or otherwise near the TV screen.